A Christian Journey That Started With Theft

A Christian Journey That Started With Theft

My journey to becoming a Christian started with Anwuli. She was renowned in our village for her perfectly well-seasoned dried meat. Her art was the finest in our land and even beyond. She alone knows the wonders that go into her cooking pot, the goodness that she adds to the simmering meat and the buds-watering awe that follows when she puts them on Ahiara to dry out. Anwuli had hunters working for her. Fortnightly, they would go neck-deep into the Akika forest and emerge with all sorts of animals that they had managed to kill. She had a way of displaying the meat in her front yard — which was just a stone’s throw to the stream — for all to see. It would take the blind not to see the array of flesh on sets. She was flaunting her wealth and craft and taunting every villager who goes to get water from the stream. I did see. I was taunted, too, and also tempted, especially during the cooking and drying process. The scented aroma of her meat was enough to send one on a quest unasked for. I wanted a taste. Just one bite. But of course, Anwuli would never give anything that wasn’t paid for. By the time those pieces of meat get to our house, I am left with a small portion not bigger than half of my little finger. It would also have been doused with the heavy aroma of my mother’s ogiri and I cannot tell the taste of the meat or the fermented oil seeds apart. I wanted the fresh, perfectly cooked, and dried meat before it entered any cooking pot filled with soup. Well, that was my greatest undoing. I stole a piece of meat from where Anwuli staked it in her yard. Just as I was about to run toward the stream with the piece of neat hidden perfectly between my breasts, she caught me. “You demented thief!” she shrieked. She tore at the lappa covering my breasts and retrieved the piece of meat I had stolen. She held me and then dragged me home shouting all the way. It attracted other villagers who followed and called me a thief. “Your daughter has desecrated this land, she came to my house to steal!” Anwuli told my mother. I could see my mother’s eyes turn into a ball of surprise and shame. She had raised me well and took pride in the fact that though I was an only child, I was ten in one. This would dampen her pride and voice whenever she talks in the clan women’s meeting, especially when the topic is centred on their children. I needed to protect that pride and my reputation as well. So I lied. I called Anwuli a liar and said I would never do such a thing. I was content with the food I ate in my mother’s house and would never steal to quench an unknown hunger. What is meat that I can’t eat in my father’s house? That annoyed Anwuli further. She has no children of her own and took to her trade with the utmost dedication and commitment that one could muster, such lavish obligation that she couldn’t give to a child. Now I call her a liar. She was insulted by a child of another woman in her clan. Right there, she told my mother, “Get ready then; we will go to Ani tomorrow, and this thief of yours will swear that she did not steal from me. Then we would know who the true liar is from the person’s death that would follow.” She pushed me slightly as she turned and walked out of our yard. The other villagers followed her out. I could see in her walk the triumph of victory and also that of wickedness. That was rather too harsh. To go to Ani just because of a piece of meat. I turned to my mother quickly, “I can explain this.” “Shut up!” Mother said. She had tears in her eyes as she sank to the ground slowly. “I’ve always known that you would ruin me but I never thought you would want to render me childless.” She started weeping, wiping her tears with the edge of her lappa. I knew then that the matter was settled. Other villagers had witnessed the affair, and Anwuli is not one to back down on anything, particularly when it has to do with her precious trade. I went into my hut and then the heaviness of my sin began to make sense. I would die for I indeed stole from Anwuli. In my justification, at least I didn’t eat the meat. Ani would spare me because I was only a teenager and did not even taste what I stole. I would be free, I consoled myself. Then again, my mind reproved me further; I was simply being foolish with my consolation; Ani would kill me. Father came home later in the evening. He was humming the tune of a song I’ve never heard before. He was calm, the very picture of peace and happiness at the same time. I waited for Mother to tell him of my crime and also to get him to quickly go to Anwuli or even to Ani to plead my case, to see if it could be dismissed. I didn’t hear Mother’s teary voice. I didn’t hear Father’s raised angry voice either. No one beckoned on me to hear the truth or even the lie. I waited for minutes, and when Mother came to call me, I gave in to sorrow and followed her to my Father’s obi in torment. I was going to die even before I eventually died. “I have accepted the white man’s Chukwu,” Papa said smiling. “I did not go to the farm as you both must have thought, I was in their meeting place at Umokpu. I listened to their spokesperson and I believed what he said about … Read more

How a Teacher’s Faith Helped a Disabled Student Walk

How a Teacher's Faith Helped a Disabled Student Walk

“Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen” The Bible verse echoed in Hannah’s subconscious as she watched Freda from the corner of her eye. The feeling came again, yet Hannah could not put a name to it. It was just like her first day at the school. Freda’s bright smile caught her attention when she was introduced to her students. She had asked them to share their names, and one by one, they stood up to introduce themselves. When it was Freda’s turn, she stated her name and made a subtle gesture, as if handing over an invisible baton to the next student, signalling them to proceed with their introduction. Hannah was taken aback when Freda didn’t stand up to introduce herself. That’s when she noticed the special needs chair Freda was sitting in. Suddenly, an uneasy feeling rose from her stomach and exploded in her heart. Really, Lord? Hannah had gone home that day to pray feeling so full. “I don’t think I want any disabled person in my class; my heart is too fragile to accept it. I don’t want to treat her differently; I don’t even know how to teach a disabled person,” she continued in prayers. She prayed, then burst into tears, and eventually, laughter followed. What was happening to her? How different would it be to teach one who has a physical disability? Hannah’s laughter was short-lived, as tears began to flow once more, “I still don’t know what to do; I feel like I owe her a responsibility, and I’m not going to fail her; please help me, Lord.” And so now, she watched as Freda worked her numbers, counting some off with her fingers and eyes furrowed in concentration. Hannah wondered if the class work she had given was too challenging, but then she reminded herself that it was straight from their Grade 4 mathematics textbook. She opened the textbook again to review the assessment and reassured herself that the work was suitable, plus she had just shown them how to do it. Freda was the first to finish and, in her usual way, started to wheel herself to the front to submit. Hannah struggled with standing up and going to meet her halfway to collect it or allow her to come all day. She decided the latter and watched as Freda came forward and placed her note dutifully on her desk, then wheeled back to her position just in between the rows of seats. Hannah exhaled deeply, only then realizing she had been holding her breath the entire time she was watching Freda “Dear Lord, please save me from this feeling. Please help me,” she muttered quietly. She took Freda’s note, scanned through her work quickly and the smile started stretching her lips. The girl was just too brilliant! Hannah took her pen and started marking. Other students soon started submitting one after the other. Hannah knew then that she had nothing to worry about. She would be a great teacher for Freda. Those high thoughts clouded Hannah’s mind till the end of the term, she saw Freda differently and even started including her in every extracurricular activity. She ensured Freda joined the other kids for P.E. She made her join the music class and encouraged her to sing loud just like the others. Next, she encouraged her to join the choreography class as well. She might not be able to stand and move her body like the others, but at least she could move it in her wheelchair and work it with her hands. “I’ve never done this before,” Freda would always say whenever Hannah introduced a new activity for her to do. “Well, today is your lucky day,” Hannah would respond and wheel her out to the table tennis court, to the art and painting class, to the music class and the dance class. So it happened, the day that changed everything. It was a few minutes to their break time for the curricular activity. Hannah erased the whiteboard the second time to continue writing and completing the notes on social studies for the week. She was done in no time and waited for her students to finish writing, too, before erasing the board again. She walked around the class, observing as the students looked up at the board, took in the information, and transferred it to their notes. “Please hurry up, it’s almost time for a break,” Hannah urged them. She walked back to the board to erase a section at the top, making space to write again. Then a glorious thought came to her mind and in no time, it flooded her entire system. Her pulse quickened as she gripped the eraser in her hands and turned to face the class. “Who would like to help me wipe the board?” She asked. All hands went up, as always. Hannah wondered why this task was a class favourite. Everyone except Freda, who never joined in. Hannah knew she wouldn’t raise her hand. “Freda,” Hannah called. The class gasped, all eyes darted at Hannah and then at Freda. What was she trying to do? Freda’s hand would not even get to the top of the board. Freda was shocked as well and sat frozen in her chair. Hannah had never called her before. “Have it,” Hannah stretched the eraser to her, “Come and wipe the top of the board.” Hannah’s eyes got teary immediately as she held out her hand waiting for Freda to come take the eraser. “The top of the board?” Freda asked puzzled “Yes.” “Ma——” “No excuses, please wipe the top of the board,” Hannah said gently. Freda wheeled herself to the front of the class and dutifully collected the eraser from Hannah. “Ma, she can’t do it. Can I come and help?” The class prefect offered. It felt like a punishment. Everyone knew it was impossible so why would Hannah choose to humiliate Freda like that? Hannah … Read more

Why Vetting Household Staff is Essential to Avoid Betrayal

Why Vetting Household Staff is Crucial

He was our driver. An elderly man, according to our Dad, applied for the household driver position even though he was too old for it. We never got around to learning his real name, affectionately referring to him as ‘Uncle’ instead. Every morning, he would meticulously wash our cars, then wait patiently by the garage for us to emerge and choose which vehicle to use. Our Dad would leave first, and Uncle would drive him to work with a truly endearing dedication After dropping off my dad, Uncle would swing back to pick us up whenever we were ready to head out. He’d then return to my dad’s workplace at 3:50 pm to drive him home. Uncle had a fun way of addressing us – I was ‘mini-madam’, my sister Machi was ‘small-madam’, and my brother Ekene was ‘boss’. We loved these nicknames and the playful vibe they brought to our time with Uncle Uncle was like a second parent to us, making it perfectly natural for us to chat with him freely and at ease. He would often ask us questions, even personal ones about our family, and we would respond without hesitation or reservation. To us, he was simply ‘Uncle’ – a trusted and beloved figure in our lives, deserving of our openness and affection. We made sure to include Uncle in our family trips and vacations, and Mum would even give him a bonus on top of his monthly pay from Dad. My siblings and I would often confide in him, sharing secrets like when we’d sneak off to places we shouldn’t be. He’d drive us there, but not before warning us, “If I get fired when your parents find out, you’ll all have to pay me a monthly allowance until I find a new job.” We all loved him and he knew. One afternoon, I came home to find my parents searching for something. Dad was in a state of panic, tearing through their room and his study, exclaiming, “It’s a massive business deal, and I can’t afford to lose it! I’ve put everything I own on the line as collateral!” My mum’s eyes were brimming with tears as she meticulously scoured through every document, wiping her eyes and peering closely at each page. I was bewildered, struggling to make sense of the chaos. My Dad’s pleas to God grew more fervent as he rummaged through books we were certain wouldn’t hold the documents he sought: “Please, God, help me! I’m ruined if I don’t find it!” Dad started searching for the business charter when he got to his office in the morning and realized it was nowhere to be found in the stack of files he came with. He’d definitely had it when he left home, so he called Uncle back to his workplace and they thoroughly searched the car. When that didn’t work, they sped back home to continue the search, I trooped to the room I shared with my siblings. “This is just jazz, how can those documents just disappear into thin air? Something he put in his portfolio just this morning,” Ekene said. “Tell me about village people right now and I would believe it,” Machi said in agreement. I was too dazed to contribute as I could still not comprehend what was going on. We went back to our parents room and saw dad crying, mum was hugging him and telling him to calm down. She was crying too. That sight broke me and I started crying, Ekene and Machi soon followed. The police were stunned when we reported the missing document. “You mean to tell me a crucial paper just vanished into thin air?” they seemed to say. My dad had it when he got into the car, and now it was gone. Uncle was beating himself up over it, thinking he should’ve kept a closer eye on the portfolio. Maybe someone swiped it during the ride to the office, but how? Uncle was just as perplexed as the rest of us. We were all stunned, but the reality of our situation hit us like a ton of bricks. The weight of impending homelessness and poverty was crushing. Dad was consumed by despair, openly weeping every day, lamenting his decision to put all our eggs in one basket. Mum, once full of life, was now a shadow of her former self, and our home was shrouded in a depressing gloom. ****** The day Uncle was arrested, we made a shocking discovery. He wasn’t as old as he seemed! All along, he’d been wearing a clever disguise – an organic casted, fake aged body and a manipulated voice and accent. He had us all fooled! He was a skilled con artist, hiding behind a false name, identity, and disguise. Despite being with us for two years, we never suspected that the elderly man we knew was actually a fake. His ability to deceive was uncanny. On that particular day, he had taken my Dad’s portfolio and skillfully removed the business charter when Dad was not watching, and hid it in a carved-out space beneath the front seat. He had worked on creating that space before that day and no one would ever think of searching for anything there. After dropping off my Dad that day, he surreptitiously handed off the stolen documents to his gang, who quickly got to work exploiting my Dad’s identity to process the business deal. His insider was my Dad’s own secretary who had been feeding him intel on my Dad’s every move. Just as they thought they’d pulled off the perfect heist, they were busted at the airport, trying to make a break for it to lay low before striking again. “Let him rot in jail, I will make sure he does not come out of that jail!” Dad was shouting when we received the news. Even though Dad didn’t get all of his money back, we were glad that we could still pay back … Read more

Embracing Love After Life’s Hardest Trials

Embracing Love After Life’s Hardest Trials

Mike and Miracle’s love is tested by the cruel hand of fate—cancer, infertility, and heartache threaten to break their bond. Yet, in their quiet moments together, they chose love above all else, finding beauty in each other and the strength to keep going. It wasn’t an easy journey, but Mike took the lead, and gradually, Miracle began to open up to him. One such moment unfolded in the intimacy of their home, where Mike followed Miracle to the bathroom, eager to continue their conversation, having no intention of letting it end just yet. Miracle, conscious of his gaze, slowly removed her clothes while continuing to contribute to their discussion He sat down on the chair he had brought into the bathroom. “For gists and the likes,” he had said when he bought a chair specifically for the bathroom. Their discussion didn’t have to end simply because one of them needed to bathe. The other could simply follow and the discussion could continue. He actually did this. Miracle found it awkward after their wedding to just sit and talk and watch him bathe. He, on the other hand, enjoyed it and most times either joined in the bath or offered to scrub her back. Now, she was so sure he was watching her even as he talked about his colleague, a professor who got a student pregnant and forced her to abort the baby. She panicked, her hands shook as she slid her underwear down her legs. She turned her back as she was about to take off her bralette. “What are you doing? Why are you turning away?” Mike stopped her quickly and stood up from the chair. “I just wanted to take off -” He didn’t let her finish and said, “I’ve told you to stop turning away from me.” The tears welled in her eyes just as her breathing got laboured. “I’m sorry,” Miracle said. “Its fine,” he responded and helped her unhook her bralette. Her left breast fell slightly against her chest. Where her right breast once occupied, stood a straight patched line which appeared after she healed from the mastectomy. The surgery humbled her just as the cancer did when it came. Having just one breast to boast of her femininity made her feel so small and made her hide, especially from Mike. She stopped hugging him, didn’t want his body touching or feeling the absence of one of her breasts. She wore big boubou gowns even in the house and wouldn’t let him touch her as he used to. With time, she recovered and accepted her fate just as the surgical line left a permanent scar on her right breast area. Other parts of her didn’t recover: her womb couldn’t house a baby even after all attempts. They had many speculations and tried different medications but none worked. Their very last attempt was In vitro fertilization, and that took root. They were elated, and just when it was time to receive their baby, she pushed him out, dead. Then the cycle began, again and again, they both watched their hope rise and fall with each miscarriage until there was no pregnancy at all. Miracle had imagined he would find her unattractive after all she had been through. Mike had loved her body and looked at her like she was a prized possession. She loved that very effect she had on him and always found ways to tease him and bring him to do her bidding. Initially, she fought the cancer badly, determined not to be overthrown by the deadly disease, but it came hard as well. She shrunk under its gaze, her succulent body shriveled up, her hips gave way for gaps, she lost a good amount of her hair, and lastly, it took one of her breasts. Then infertility came for her, it broke her further, and she hid even more She hated her body and hated the things it was doing to her. It birthed low self-esteem and it crushed her spirit daily. It broke Mike more. He was clueless and did not know how to help her or help their marriage. “Just talk to her.” It sounded crazy when Pastor Ifemi told him to just talk with his wife daily and build true friendship away from their struggles. So he started talking every day, he called her at intervals during the day, and when he was home, he ensured he took the lead to talk and tell her stories. So he started talking every day, he called her at intervals during the day and when he was home, he ensured he took the lead to talk and tell her stories. She began to open up then. Their devotion returned, she prayed with her voice raised and started singing in the house again. In those moments, he assured her that she was beautiful and he loved her body just as he did when they got married and before their struggles began. And it was then he told her never to turn away or try to hide her body from him. Their devotion returned, she prayed with her voice raised and started singing in the house again. . . He helped her into the bathtub and went back to the chair. He remembered they were having a conversation about his colleague in school and continued from where he stopped. READ ALSO: Scars That Break Us

Marrying Wrong and the Truth It Reveals

Marrying Wrong and the Truth It Reveals

Mum would often use her life as an example of the consequences of marrying the wrong person. She didn’t need to explicitly share her story for us to understand; her experiences spoke volumes. She lived in fear of our Dad, her husband, a fear that was so overwhelming it eroded her self-esteem and left her feeling humbled. Before all this started, Mum had loved Dad with all her heart, and she would often recall how she couldn’t wait to marry him when he came to ask for her hand in marriage. She was young and deeply in love, eager to spend her life with Dad. Whenever she shared this memory, her eyes would cloud with painful nostalgia. I could see the lingering longing in her gaze, a yearning to be loved by the man she married – a love she had only known briefly, a long time ago. I could see it too – the silence, the monosyllabic responses, the shouts, and even the beatings. At first, we thought that’s how married couples behaved; that wives should have a reverential fear for their husbands, and husbands should dominate the home with an iron fist. But as we grew older, my elder brother Ese and I began to notice the difference between other couples and our parents. We realized then that something was terribly wrong in our home. Our parents were unlike any others we had seen. Dad never physically abused us, but he did abuse Mum. He would hit her at the slightest provocation and was quick to shout at her if she made any mistake. He would storm out of the living room if she tried to join him and would raise his voice if Mum was running late getting ready for church on Sundays. He was hypercritical, finding fault in everything she did – the food she cooked, the clothes she wore, her initial joblessness, and even after she started a supermarket, he still managed to find fault in that too. He belittled her and rendered her voiceless, silencing her opinions and preventing her from speaking up when she disagreed with a decision. Mum lived in the shadows of her own home, constantly afraid and lonely. But whenever Dad traveled and she was left with Ese and me, a different side of her emerged. We would laugh and share jokes, watch TV until we were exhausted, and go on shopping sprees. We’d dine out and explore all the fun spots in town. She’d invite her friends over and even join them for nights out, staying out late and enjoying herself. She transforms every time into an entirely different person, and it’s that vibrant version of her that Ese and I adored. However, when Dad returns from his trip, Mum would retreat back into her shell, and the laughter and joy would be completely drained from our home. I’ve never seen Mum and Dad share a conversation or laughter together; they live parallel lives, each engrossed in their own world – Dad in his smartphone, Bible, family devotion, and church services, while Mum does the same. This created a suffocating atmosphere in our home. I often wondered how a man could once love and cherish a woman, bringing her close, only to leave her feeling isolated and alone after having children. It seemed like he deprived her of the very companionship she craved. I carried this troubling image of my parents’ marriage with me when I left home for university. ****** Now at 33, I still hesitated to commit to any man. What’s the point of following someone if it means ending up as desolate as my mum was in her marriage? I’ve witnessed enough to know that I don’t want to get married only to become heartbroken and afraid for the rest of my life. My brother Ese, on the other hand, was different. He had friends, including female ones, and eventually fell in love and got married. I was surprised at his decision but then I realized he was a man, and our parents’ troubled marriage had seemingly no impact on him, unlike me. I was wrong; just six months after his wedding, Nadia, his wife, called me one morning as I was driving to work. “He hit me!” she exclaimed, her voice trembling, “I accidentally spilled tea on his shirt, and he became enraged, slapping me and then beating me.” I froze on the wheels, unable to move as I listened in shock. When she finished speaking, I realized that Ese hadn’t escaped the patterns of our childhood after all; the cycles of violence and abuse were repeating themselves in his own marriage. READ ALSO: Silence is Not Always Golden

Silence is Not Always Golden

Silence is Not Always Golden

Silence is not always golden, sometimes. It is plain yellow and it demands that one should speak up and not remain silent. Cheta was not silent after Anthony, her Madam’s husband, raped her repeatedly. This is her story. At the first thrust, Anthony froze, time seemed to suspend itself as he remained motionless, perhaps lost in thought, contemplating the intensity of the moment. He soon let it go and started moving. He went faster and faster and closed his eyes to savour her sweetness while Cheta’s cries and pleas faded into the background. He liked her, he had always liked her from the very first time his wife brought her in. Her innocent face was the first thing that caught his attention that cold Saturday morning. Her “Good morning, sir” while kneeling to greet him melted his heart and when she tried to stand up from the respect-induced position, his eyes rested on her cleavage. He nodded in answer and watched her follow his wife into the narrow passageway leading to the bedrooms. His eyes lingered on her backside, watching the swaying of her hips. Anthony wanted to resist the temptation like any other responsible man would, he told his wife to take her back to her parents but his wife went on and on about how useful she was, her ability to do house chores well, and cook good food. “Cheta is well-behaved,” his wife had said. His wife said “well-behaved” like those elderly people who know nothing else about you, just that you walk alone on the streets, dress properly and greet them is enough to earn the title of a well-behaved child. Cheta is indeed well-behaved, enough to beg him when he locked the door that fateful day after asking her to come in and pull her clothes. “Please sir, I can do anything you want but not this.” Anthony was taken aback at her guts, the ability to tell him what she could and couldn’t do, and well-behaved enough to add “please”. It infuriated him and he landed her a slap which made her fall, he wanted to remind her that she was their maid, his maid. He has the right to tell her to eat faeces and she would obey because he feeds her and pays her parents in the village monthly salaries for her service. But he didn’t say a word, he lifted her from the floor and threw her on the bed. He undressed her roughly, his long fingers inflicting pain on her as they scratched her body. “You will tell no one of this, am I understood?” he asked. She nodded in tears, too tired to speak from his attack on her member. Anthony opened his eyes when she started wailing loudly in Igbo and saying “Nnem, bia zọpụtam (Oh my mother, come and save me)!” “Shut up!” he yelled and forced his sweaty singlet into her mouth to muffle her cries. He held her hands above her head and dug further into her body smiling devilishly to himself. Each thrust caused her more pain, filled her with hatred for him, and helped her nurse the desire to poison him. He felt fulfilled as he collapsed on her body, grunting as his fluid filled her up. He rolled off her and got up quickly. “Get up and go clean your body,” he commanded when he finally let her go. Cheta was lost for some seconds before she came to. She stood up slowly feeling her entire body on fire with tickling pain running through her abused female organ. She tried not to allow her thighs to rub against each other to avoid more pain so she walked with her legs apart. Anthony called her back to take the blood-stained sheet warning her to wash it before her madam returned. Her tears ran freely as she removed the sheet from the bed. This is her being asked to wash away the proof of her virginity which was taken away by a monster.  The world just lied to her, she knew it wouldn’t be easy but it never told her it would be this bad, she was being asked to cut her heart out and remain alive without it and to be silent. She didn’t say a word, she only nodded in agreement as usual in her well-behaved way. ****** “Are you sure you’re ready for this?” the woman from the Domestic and Sexual Violence Agency asked. “You can have more time if you want.” “I am,” Cheta replied, her hands clasped together for warmth and support. “The recording will start immediately, and many people will see this, know you, and hear your story. Are you sure you’re ready for this to happen?” the woman asked again, trying to convey the gravity of the situation. “I am, “ Cheta repeated, this time more quietly. Her strength seemed to come from an unknown source. She had woken up on the wrong side of the bed that morning, not thinking as she left the house through her room’s window to avoid the locked main door. Wearing her slippers would make her go out through the main hall and opening the door would wake someone up, so she decided to wear the only good shoe in her room, a wedged heel, and trekked the distance to the agency.  She didn’t want to think about life after speaking up, about people knowing she had been raped and abused repeatedly, or about her madam’s husband being arrested or fined; or her madam calling her a liar and slapping her in her usual way.  She looked every inch a mad woman, trekking in a nightgown and heeled shoes. Who cares anyway? She is ready to damn the world and all its standards. Anthony did it again after the first time. And then a second time too. He said he was getting addicted to her body and couldn’t control himself. He paid no attention to the fact that she no … Read more

Scars That Break Us

Scars that Break Us

Scars are the second horrible thing that can happen to anyone, the first is usually the beating. The severe kicks, slaps, punches and scratches that leave one a defeated spirit with the defences all gone and then they bring the scars. It wasn’t always this brutal. I had my family and my friends, I went to school, I laughed so hard till tears of joy ran down my cheeks, and there were happy moments and days of high-sounding prayers but it came to an abrupt end the day Dad died. Mum promised we would never leave her to go stay with someone else, we believed her. I believed her. When the peanuts she got from everyday hawking weren’t enough to keep the bread crusty; anger, anxiety and depression started to set in and Mum forgot all her promises. I was the first to leave. I went very far from home, away to stay with a woman who was supposed to be my aunt and for the first week, it was bliss then everything changed. The day her husband slapped me for giving their son Capri-Sonne instead of Viju Milk opened the imaginary door for others to follow. It graduated from slaps to blows, to punches — heavier ones, then to flogging with anything in sight- extreme flogging till my skin bled most times and the scars started to appear. It turned me into a liar, a big fat liar to cover up for the pummeled face and purple eyes, for the swollen hand and limping gait. I remember telling my teacher one time that I had hit my face on the door handle at home and it caused the swollen eyes. She knew I was lying because I was way taller than the door handle but she said nothing. What my Aunt had was pure hate; obvious decaying hatred for me no matter what I did or didn’t do. The other day, she pushed me out of her car for wearing a blouse with a big tear at the armpit, the same blouse she refused to give me money to mend. I had to trek the long distance to Church that morning because she didn’t want people to see me with her. That day was mothering Sunday and she had to appear as a pure soul worthy of praise and resemblance to the Ever Virgin Mary, Mother of our Lord Jesus Christ. A girl in tattered clothes coming down from her car with her kids beautifully dressed would ruin her day. Then it was the hunger strikes, on those days I would be banned from the Kitchen, other rooms were my sphere of play and chores but not the kitchen that housed the food. It would go on till she deems it fit to feed me, most times spanning into days. My depression absorber was my books, I read out my brain and ate the school tests and exams like yams. Maybe, just maybe my Aunt would be proud of me and reduce her brutal treatment but that was so far from it. I stopped schooling after Primary Five because I was too good for her liking. She wondered how I excelled even though other children in my class stayed back for the extra lessons and had tons of tutorials at home, I’d rush home immediately after dismissal to meet up with work before dusk yet I bagged first position at the end of each term. Because I did better than her children, I started staying at home while her kids went to school. According to her, they need the education more than I do. ****** I stood before the woman from DSVA and I explained how it all happened. The day my aunt turned into a dark monster. She asked me to wash her George wrapper for the monthly women’s meeting around 7 pm and spread it outside so it would dry before dawn. I did as I was instructed but the gods ruled against her favour that night, it rained heavily. She woke me up with a slap and asked me to go outside and get her wrappers. I dashed out in the rain but it was no use, it was soaking wet and would never dry before 8 am for her meeting. It annoyed her so much that she locked me outside for making her wrappers wet. I nearly died of cold but it won’t matter to her, I don’t matter to anyone. I lay at the entrance of the house coiled like a snake, shivering and allowing the rain to drown my tears and pain. I was soaked to the skin like her wrappers but I had no choice or anywhere to go. She finally let me in and refused to give me food. I didn’t let it bother me. I have a way of stealing her money and filling my stomach with kpo kpo Garri or akara and bread or even Indomie noodles and eggs when she leaves the house. I’d always find the money no matter where she hid it, I was that good at stealing. She brought out another wrapper and started ironing them for the meeting. She called me into her room minutes later and shut the door. I knew she was still angry because of her wrappers but I never expected what she did next. She tore my clothes and in a flash, the iron on the floor was on the left lobe of my buttocks. The sizzling sound of the hot iron on my raw skin sent me to hell as I screamed in pure agony. She lifted the iron from my body and I could see a thin layer of my skin on it. She held me to a spot with her big hands and since I was so thin, it was so easy for her to hold me and stop me from escaping. The iron came down again on my right breast and I went haywire with … Read more

Silenced by the Gods: The Day I Lost My Voice

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The day I was silenced for life, Mother said was the day the sun kissed the stream in a glorious entanglement that made the water give up steam the moment all that hotness touched all its coolness. Mother also said the clouds came with the sun and one could easily reach out and touch it. I found her story unbelievable but she repeated it continuously to everyone who cared to listen, so much that it became true. After all, when lies are told over and over again, they become true. She told them I became dumb because Amadioha, the god of the sky would strike a beloved one of any person who sees such a phenomenon with a strange sickness. That fateful day, Father was angry that Mother delayed preparing his dinner on time. She had visited Mmiliaku, her friend and the village gossip and stayed there for a long time. Father returned from his farm at Ukanta and met the fireplace cold, no pot close by to signify cooking and no covered plates containing his meal on his table. He was angry and a dark shadow descended on his eyes making them glow with rage. He came outside and found me playing outside the walled fence of our hut with some children from the neighbourhood.  “Nneamaka!” He barked at me. I left my friends and ran back to our hut immediately. “Where is your mother?” He asked. “She went to visit her friend,” I replied, hoping he would dismiss me so I would go back to my play.  Across the fence, a neighbour’s fowl crowed loudly. He scowled and looked into the distance as if his eyes would find my Mother immediately. If eyes could kill, Father’s eyes would have wreaked havoc on my Mother if he saw her at that moment. He shook his head and went inside the room. He went to his hunter’s bag,  brought out his snuff, and settled on his cane chair on the verandah, hitting the little bottle on his lap to unclog the particles. I shifted my weight from one leg to the other impatiently waiting for him to ask me to go but he didn’t, he rather took his snuff and continued looking into the distance. “Papa, it will soon get to my turn to do the Njemanze dance with my friends, can I go back now?” I asked. He looked at me and I suddenly felt stupid. He said nothing and I sat down on the mud steps leading to our house, trying to hold back the tears that rushed to my eyes. He would beat me if he saw that I was crying because he refused to allow me to go back to play, so I fought the tears back. Mother came home that day when the sun was already casting long shadows of the palm trees in our compound on the threshold. She stopped short in the middle of the compound when she saw us: one sitting and brooding angrily, and the other with tears fighting not to spill. “Nna’m biko, ewe n’iwe-” (“my husband, please don’t be angry”) her voice trailed off in Igbo as she tried to explain what happened and why she wasn’t home when he returned and hadn’t prepared dinner. Father was silent, a clear sign that he was so angry. Mother knows that very well and she quickly ran to get her water pot and dashed for the stream. Father called after her, “You must be joking, what wife would leave her home unattended to go and gossip with a friend?” Mother didn’t turn, she was running and soon she disappeared among the clusters of huts following the path to the stream. She didn’t know that it was time for Amadioha to come for a bath, which happens once a month, and usually before dusk: the entirety of the sky would come down to the stream. The day is usually unknown, and it is expected that no one will be at the stream by that time.  Mum was a few meters from the stream when the weather changed. The sky started its descent and she was right there. The sun had touched the stream and the clouds close enough for one to touch and grab the gases when Amadioha saw that a mortal was standing close by. He thundered immediately and a slash of lightning went off. Mum ran back but it was too late. The lightning struck me at home. I was still sitting on the verandah with Father. He was still brooding and shaking his right foot impatiently. I still had tears in my eyes and still longed to go back to play with my friends when the lightning hit me hard and I collapsed on the ground. I went dumb afterwards, my tongue twisted in my mouth and I started making incoherent sounds unable to speak. So Mum would always tell people how it happened, how she was late in preparing dinner and how I was silenced the day the sun kissed the stream. READ ALSO: A Student’s Extraordinary Seminar Defense

When a Student’s Envy Turns Criminal

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Ikemefuna will never get fat. He was the type of person who could eat endlessly without gaining an ounce.  It was astonishing to see him consume large amounts of food without any visible weight gain. A good wonder as I watched in envy as he effortlessly glided from one chair to another in the cafeteria, laughing and whispering with the girls. I wanted his life. Such perfection – his slender, tall, and handsome physique. He was so captivating that all the girls he interacted with showered him with attention and affection. They touched him, some in a modest Christian way that didn’t go unnoticed and some in an open carnal manner. As I sipped on a Coke and devoured a doughnut, I couldn’t help but feel envious. Ikemefuna had eaten the same treats just moments before, yet his body seemed immune to the calories. I couldn’t resist the temptation to indulge, thinking that if he could do it, why couldn’t I? But deep down, I knew it wasn’t just about the food – it was about the injustice of it all. One person got to have it all, while I felt like I was stuck in a perpetual state of inadequacy. I was the antithesis of Ikemefuna in every way. Where he was slender and graceful, I was rotund and clumsy. My body seemed to absorb every calorie, every morsel of food with alarming efficiency. Rolls of flesh hung over my belt, and my cheeks were perpetually flushed and puffy. When I walked, I waddled, my thighs chafing uncomfortably with each step. My ill-fitting school uniform strained at the seams, buttons threatening to pop at any moment. However, what I lacked in looks, I compensated with my brains and so while Ikemefuna had all the girls for a while, they came back to me when it was time for Maths, English, Physics and Chemistry. But despite my academic prowess, I couldn’t help but feel like I was living in Ikemefuna’s shadow. The girls would praise me for my academic achievements, exclaiming, “Cheta, you’re the best!” “Your head is too hot!” and “Man like Cheta!” But their admiration was always tempered with distance. They would never touch me or smile at me the way they did with Ikemefuna. I knew then that no matter how hard I tried, no one would ever find me attractive and then the hate started creeping in. Months later, when they asked why I did it in the juvenile home I was confined to. I told them it was a social experiment, I was a science student and just wanted to see if what our chemistry teacher said about hydrogen peroxide was true. So I poured a little into a can of juice and convinced Ikemefuna to taste it and see if he could tell the difference between that brand and another. Poor Ikemefuna, as innocent and as stupid as he was commented on the strange smell but drank it anyway. I felt the strange pull to stop him and confess what I wanted to do but the resentfulness I felt towards him was greater than anything else. He started to laugh afterwards and told me it tasted awful. I wasn’t expecting an immediate result. In fact, I didn’t know what to expect but I knew that the foaming from his mouth, his eyes rolling to the back of his socket and his muscles contorting in ways that seemed impossible was insane. That image of him haunted me for days even after he was confirmed okay by doctors and I was withdrawn from school. It didn’t make sense to say I wanted the life of a classmate so bad that I had tried to harm him out of envy, so I concocted a story about a social experiment gone wrong. READ ALSO: When Family Becomes the Most Important Destination

A Student’s Extraordinary Seminar Defense

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Egbokhare stepped into the hall, it was filled with her coursemates milling about, some doing last-minute checks on their notes; some simply gisting in their clique corners and talking about which examiner was the hardest and the errors they would find in their seminar papers, some others were practising their presentation, lip syncing in an unknown language. Egbokhare quickly scanned the room, found an empty seat, and walked briskly to claim it before someone else did. She settled in and closed her eyes, muttered under her breath, “Lord, I am here now and it is time for my seminar defense.” The examiners walked in then, with their stone-hard faces. They had papers of everyone presenting in that session and carried water bottles. Egbokare wondered why they all had water bottles and then noticed it was a gift from the department, they were given customized water bottles, good gracious! Kemi was first to present and she bemoaned her fate even before she stood up, cursing silently why her surname began with an “A”. She stood in front of the class and started presenting in a shaky voice, Egbokhare noted how her voice sounded and knew it was fear. They didn’t spare Kemi, The examiners’ review was thorough, their questions piercing, and their grading merciless. Others followed and they faced the same fate as Kemi, some shallow and some quite hard. Egbokhare’s turn came. She heard her name, stood up diligently, and walked to the front of the class, where she greeted everyone. It began at that instant. The examiners’ faces froze, turning stone-white. They watched her as if they were seeing a ghost and her course mates were as silent as ever. After she finished, she waited for the questions and probing. The examiners suddenly regained their composure and looked at her paper before them and then at her face again. They conversed among themselves in low tones, nodding and making notes on their score sheet. The class could feel the energy in the air, watching the examiners decide Egbokhare’s fate and that of her paper was like being before the judgement seat of God and waiting for His verdict. Egbokhare breathed in and out severally. “Why did you choose this topic and research area?” One of the examiners asked. The examiner was a woman and she smiled. Her coursemates were surprised at the smile, the other presenters did not get anything close to a smile. Egbokhare felt warm all over and responded. The examiners all nodded in unison and the lead said to her, “We can see the rigour, great job!” Then he motioned to the class, “At least, one of you decided to put in the work required for the grade in this course.” A low murmur swept through the hall which ended as the next person to present was called upon. Egbokhare went back to her seat with her heart in her mouth, it was like a dream, more like a swift breeze. She was done and she got everything she wanted.  She bowed her head to thank God for a successful seminar defense, she raised her head to focus on the next person presenting when Isaac tapped her from behind. “I saw them,” he whispered when she turned. “Saw who?” Egbokhare asked, “The chariots of fire and the horsemen around you as you stood in front, you never said you were coming to your defend you seminar paper with such great company,” He responded and sat still. Egbokhare closed her eyes and managed to wipe the tears that came to her eyes. God had wanted to attend the seminar defense and he did so with so much glory.   READ ALSO: What Is A Plant Based Diet And It’s Benefits?